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Fri, 12 Jun 2009 19:17:53 GMT

Mon, 18 May 2009 05:37:49 GMT

ALONE

I hadn't been alone since Liam and I had started dating over 5 years ago until Wednesday when Fathers Day went to New Orleans to play the Spellcaster Lodge.

Not that I was really alone I had my band there but alone without my family. I definitely missed the boys but more importantly I finally felt motivated. Phoenix and my family and friends don't unmotivate me but make me stay in a comfortable place so I just constantly feel the same. Being alone and trying not to be scared or worrying about my family made me feel really amazing. If I can make myself mentally strong enough to get over something like losing the two people I care the most about I can do anything. I am sure this all sounds pretty crazy, I was gone for 3 days but 3 days after 5 years of literally not spending a single day without Liam or Iggy at this point I think is pretty fucking great.

The point of all of this is that I want to change. l want to get over these blocks that have been in my way whether it be losing weight, starting a musical project that I want to do and making people support ME instead of the other way around or maybe even going back to school. I don't want Iggy to grow up thinking his mom is some dumb asshole who never made anything of herself... I want to be make hime proud, make myself proud.

Sat, 04 Apr 2009 00:36:44 GMT

PRE MIRROR

Last night really wasn't about anyone besides Paul & Stephen... at least that's how I look at it. Obviously Ryan is an enormous part of all of it but this movie is Paul & Stephen's blood, sweat, tears and money. I felt SO sad about all the glitches that occured throughout the night. I talked to Dan Harkins about it just a little while ago cause I felt really bad and he was really upset about it too. Basically Harkin's theatres are rented about by the Phoenix Film Festival, who bring their own projection equiptment, and run the show. Dan has nothing to do with it and doesn't get along very well at all with Chris whatshisface who runs the festival. I have a feeling that their is blame put on both Paul and Stephen and on Harkins for how things when down when I think the festival has a lot more to do with the mess-ups.

Yeah, it's such a bummer and the movie deserves a second showing, even if that is something they won't get. The guys did such an amazing job and it makes me really sad. Just sayin'...

Mon, 23 Feb 2009 21:36:41 GMT

COME CELEBRATE LIAM'S BIRTHDAY THIS SATURDAY!!!

Children of Hell will NOT be performing, instead Liam and Tristan's NEW band BANGARANG will take their place. Also come see D.J. Samantha WrongSong spin records between bands!!!

Thu, 19 Feb 2009 16:51:08 GMT

I hate using this blog as a place to spew about how sad I feel but...

It's super easy to cause when I am feeling good I am usually not online and am out and about doing great stuff.

I am stuck in this weird state right now. I am sure my family and I aren't the first people to have issues with trying to buy a house. I am sure that this is just a cosmic way of telling Liam and I that we must have fucked up along the way and we're being punished by signing into a bad lease and not being able to purchase a house even though we are a few of the lucky ones who have money right now and a loan to fall back on. I hate the idea that Iggy might be homeless because his parents can't get it together. I hate that my brother and sister and nephew are losing their home and have no money and I cry every time I think about it cause there is nothing I can do to stop it and I hate to see people I love hurt, I hate to see boys cry. I hate to see my little sister so sick that she can't talk to me cause she is never sick and I feel so defenseless and all I want to do is protect her.

Why is my family falling apart?

EDIT

On a lighter note has anyone heard the band that James Iha, Taylor Hanson and the dude from Fountains of Wayne have started called Tinted Windows? I am glad that our current state of irony has moved from '86 to '96.

Wed, 21 Jan 2009 05:01:56 GMT

I'm just gonna go home and bite mah pilla!

This week was weird, our house was foreclosed on... then not, but I think it really is and now we'll actually be surprised when the bank comes knocking on our door and tells us to leave. Work is stupid, like literally. Iggy I think said his first word, which was Daddy, but maybe not? We saw Tim & Eric live, it was PHENOM. I can't really deal with my friends trying to cause shit, you'd think you're 23 but really you're 15. Either way...

THIS IS WHAT LIFE SHOULD BE ABOUT!

Watch this one... paying close attention to the 5:59 mark...

Watch this one... paying close attention to the 2:59 mark...

YES!

Tue, 13 Jan 2009 22:09:25 GMT

IGGY KISSES!

Iggy was carrying this zebra doll in his mouth and that's what I was actually trying to film but he wasn't interested in showing me that. So here he is kissing the camera. This is probably pretty lame to anyone besides me and Liam. He is just so damn cute...

Thu, 08 Jan 2009 16:44:23 GMT

THIS IS THE MOST IMPORTANT THING THAT'S HAPPENED THIS YEAR

Iggy learned how to kiss... I almost want to die everytime he gives me one. I have the best baby boy ever.

Wed, 07 Jan 2009 05:14:13 GMT

DAMNIT! I WAS TAGGED!!!JJKJKJKKJKJJK

Seven Things I'm Dying to Tell You

The rules are simple. Write seven (surprising or amusing) things about yourself and then tag seven people, link to their blogs and ask them to do the same.

1. Iggy was a mistake/almost an abortion
But, I guess it just turns out differently when you actually love someone. We tried everything from Plan B to knocking on the door of Planned Parenthood, nothing worked or we just couldn't do it. I wouldn't change how anything turned out though, not a single bit.

2. I am TERRIFIED of vomit
It's not a joke, I am actually really embarrassed about it. When Iggy was sick recently I just started crying and flipping out when he got sick in the car. I tried to hold him later that night and he started barfing again and I just threw him at Liam and ran out of the room. It's fucking ridiculous that I can't handle it. I know why, I just can't get over it... I can't even help my son or husband when they get sick. I am a terrible human.

3. I used to be a chronic shoplifter
I don't really do it anymore. But in highschool and, basically until a couple years ago I would steal SO MUCH. And it wasn't for "the rush" or even because I really needed stuff, I just liked to steal from stores that either charged too much for something or were just big corporate places. I think Marla and I stole close to $1,000 worth of jeans from the Gap one year. I totally had integrety with my shoplifting though, I would NEVER steal from a local business or if I knew someone that worked there. Hahaha, I am going to hell.

4. When I was little I had a booger collection
I think that pretty much explains that, it was on the head board of my bed, gahhhhh.

5. There are some people in my life I think I can't stand...
I can't name names but yeah, I am really over it.

6. I am OBSESSED with celebrities
I don't think that is really surprising to anyone that truly knows me but I am/always will be. I am not really afraid to admit that though, I would fucking DIE to meet even the lamest of celebrities. I love t.v., I love gossip blogs, I love everything about it!

7. I am really embarrassed that I can't stand up to people when they are total dicks
For example, when someone in my extended family says something pseudo racist and I can't tell them that they are fucking assholes. Or when someone acts like a little bitch to my husband... OR ANYTHING MY STUPID FUCKIN BOSS DOES! I just hate it, I am trying to grow a back bone again, I must have lost it after I got pregnant. I was so much more of a badass back in the day.

Alright... I don't know how to link to these LJ's but I am tagging YOU GUYS!!!

Liam

Mattieson

Kevin Patterson (if you have already done one, you don't need to do it again)

Bridget

Liz

Mike

Dave

Thu, 01 Jan 2009 19:02:35 GMT

NO RESOLUTIONS!

Weirdest and best year yet?

Lots of babies came into my life, Liam and I are still going strong, traveled across the pond, walked more than one red carpet, CELEBRITIES, my BBBBFFFFFF came home, realized Liam and I can do it on our own, Father's Day became the best band... again!, reconnected with a really old friend, became better friends with some amazing people.

I could go on, I am just glad we get to do it all over again!

Oh Nine should and WILL be filled with these things:

- Sweets & Beats will begin
- Father's Day tour across the country, possibly in the U.K. as well
- Ig will learn to talk! and have a bedroom to call his own
- I'll lose some weight... maybe... if I decide to care enough
- Best Friends DVD and performance art extravaganza
- Possible CxOxH come back.

What do YOU hope to accomplish this year!?

Thu, 25 Dec 2008 10:06:41 GMT

ICK!

Liam and I have been up since 11:30 p.m. with Iggy while he cries and throws up everywhere... MERRY CHRISTMAS!

Sun, 21 Dec 2008 23:37:42 GMT

IGGY'S FIRST BIRTHDAY!!!

Fri, 12 Dec 2008 05:32:46 GMT

Fri, 05 Dec 2008 05:45:58 GMT

Last performance ever of "Human Fly Trap" !

Ahh, memories.

Fri, 14 Nov 2008 05:52:53 GMT

YARD SALE @ THE LIME OR LEMON HOUSE THIS SUNDAY SUNDAY SUNDAY!!!

THIS SUNDAY NOVEMBER 16TH

2037 N. 10TH ST, PHOENIX, LIME OR LEMON HOUSE!!!

ALL DAYYYYY!!! COME COME COME! THERE WILL BE COOL STUFF FOR SALE, BIKES, RECORDS, CLOTHES, SEWING MACHINES, MUSICAL INSTRUMENTS!!! WHAT MORE DO YOU WANT!@?!?#!

PLEASE PASS THE WORD ALONG!!!

Sun, 09 Nov 2008 08:37:17 GMT

THIS IS TOTALLY THE BEST PART SO FAR!!!

Mon, 03 Nov 2008 21:00:36 GMT

SAD

King Of The Hill was cancelled! Totally bumming...

Mon, 03 Nov 2008 05:22:28 GMT

I know from experience...

So, knowing all these kids from high school who are doing awesome things now, I just found out that Molly, this girl I was in a performance art class with among like every other class is the singer for the band Ponytail. Everyone is doing something awesome with their lives!

Fri, 31 Oct 2008 17:53:43 GMT

LIFE UPDATE!

And introducing Milton J. Puppy...

Tue, 28 Oct 2008 16:04:20 GMT

IGGY STARTED WALKING LAST NIGHT @ THE TRUNK SPACE!

Fri, 24 Oct 2008 05:25:32 GMT

THANK YOU JOSE!

See more funny videos at Funny or Die

Thu, 23 Oct 2008 17:17:24 GMT

YEAH!

Yesterday was one of the best birthdays I have had in a long time! The ice cream party was so fun, Miguel, Jose, Steve, Ryan, Tristan, Andrew, Ian, Liam, Steph, JRC, Shannon, Reva and Remi, Bryan, Amanda and the whole lot of my family showed up and ate loads of ice cream and watched You Tube videos and listened to dirty records, it was great!

This was the first year that I realized that my birthday isn't really important anymore but I have such an amazing group of people around me it doesn't matter. The Trunk Space crew is maybe the most important thing that has happened to PHX, at least I think so. I am excited for Iggy's first Halloween and L.A. and house shows. Yeah!!!

OH YEAH! I also got some neat presents like a Q&P picture disc, Harajuku Lovers perfume, vintage Japanese scarves and jewelry, some really good smelly stuff and a sugar skull ornament. Yeah for 24!

Thu, 16 Oct 2008 17:19:36 GMT

You know what's awesome?

How fat everyone has become. I can't wait to starve on tour and will all come back skinny, haha.

Wed, 15 Oct 2008 16:51:48 GMT

I'll follow this...

Liam and Ryan have already posted about the show last night, so me saying that it was awkward at it's best, is nothing new to most of you. But that's what it was.

Speaking about my own performance however, it was terrible. Last night I encompassed everything I hate about performance art and just put that out there. Oh well though... Liam and I had our breakthrough this past weekend and nothing bad matters anymore. If from this point forward I am anything but positive! artistic, motivated, business oriented (for my own goals, not for my current work situation) then please snap me out of it. Life feels really foriegn but amazing when you look at things like this.

BUT

What really needs to be said right now is the greatest news I have heard in my entire life.

FATHER'S DAY IS GOING ON TOUR!

And in the best way ever! In May, FxDx will be touring the ENTIRE country along side the "Hi My Name Is Ryan" motion picture... FOR FREEEEEEEE!~~!q#!@$!$!

The film makers came up with the most amazing plan I had ever heard. Liam, Ryan, Andrew, Tristan and I get to quit the jobs that have nothing to do with anything and get to tour for 2 months and meet amazing people and uhhh... I have no idea what to think, it all seems to unreal even though it's the most real thing ever. FREEEE!!! What!? Vans! sf/A> Iggy and Liam and me and Ryan, my family! on the road together. Too much to handle! There's no reason why I ever need to be sad again.

Fri, 10 Oct 2008 19:52:04 GMT

UGH

I don't know if I just contracted some disease from grocery shopping last night but I am grossly ill.

It's really hard to take care of babies when you are sick, I feel for all those mommies out there right now.